it has  been a crazy month, and particularly a very insane week.  which included some personal travails that are not interesting in of themselves tho i am happy to discuss in private.  readjustment; realignment; mortality, and insept dates [to quote from a favorite movie].  i am behind on a writing assignment that i feel terrible about, not the assignment but about being late.  other things too.  to quote dogen, 'to study the self is to forget the self; to forget the self is to be enlightened by all things; to be enlightened by all things is to forget the barrier between self and Other'.   i am doing my damnedest to forget my self.  i shall fail, of course, but i hope, in the phrase of samuel beckett, fail again.  fail better.